Songs from This is where we bury it:
Disappearing Act | Suddenly | Leaving Autumn | Novel | Devour You | Lay Your Hands on Me | Lament of a Lazy Lover | Empty Bottles | Leave it All Behind | Kitchen Table | What of These Things | Where is the Rain | Lost to Me |

Songs from everything you gave me:
Decide Not to Decide | Pretty Moon | Wedding Dance | Real Savior | Ghosts of Toronto | Crazy Ride | 20 Questions | Eyes of Me | Reckless Summer | Young Girl | For All The Time

Disappearing Act (2003)
Who is that juggler juggling?
Where’s his hat? Think I’ll throw a quarter in
Beg for chats and take him out drinking
Dig for facts of a great disappearing act
I’ve got feet, I could keep walking
If I’m discreet, impartial to talking
I’ll baffle and beat the border guard's blocking
And be home-free on my great disappearing act
*I could dig a tunnel to China
Wear dark glasses, and change my name
I’ll keep looking until I can find
A place where I can avoid the blame

All my friends, they are celebrities
I depend on them for their sympathy
Will they send a tracker to follow me?
Apprehend on my great disappearing act
*Chorus
But what if they find me in the trunk of a Cadillac
On the Mexican border?
Will they send me back?
Gentlemen, I give you the greatest, astounding, amazing
Disappointment of all time.

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Suddenly (2004)
In that bright photograph
I could swear you faked your laugh
’Cause I know your name’s on a long list of broken girls
I would trade all I own
To go back and take you home
And stay with you ’til the fear takes its leave
*Suddenly...nothing happens suddenly
Everything takes place to grind your will down
Don't lose faith in what is good and what is right
Can you even tell the difference anymore?
Anymore

Playing games in the dark
You're too small to build an ark
So don't count on the water to float you out of this
Though it's futile and thin
You can hide inside your skin
Until the morning brings the promise of leaving
*Chorus
Water comes from the sky
And from pain behind your eyes
Though you're pretty, you bear witness to these ugly things
You could fight, but you've found
You're much safer on the ground
Laying still until the worst has come and gone*Chorus

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Leaving Autumn (2004)
On the day that you leave I’ll be wearing your housecoat
You will still be in bed
With all these thoughts in your head
Wishing you could sleep it all away
I’ll make the coffee the way that you like it
Far too strong to be good
The way you wish that you could be
On the morning that you’re leaving me
*I forgive you and choose to bend
Though I know how this will end

Ain't it funny how the rain sets the mood for disaster
Or sets the mood to disarm?
In trading comfort for harm
I already know the way it’s going to be
Put on your clothes as I walk in the bedroom
Kiss me soft on the cheek
Seems redundant to speak
We both knew you would be leaving me
*Chorus
I will escort you on the way to the bus stop
Help you carry your things
say “if you need anything you know where I will always be.”
You sail away just as I remember
I forgot to tell you this part
Perhaps I loved you too hard
Made it hard to say you’re leaving me
*Chorus
The turbulence. The calm. The lonely.

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Novel (2002)
Erotic I am not
I think I’m afraid of you
But the fear makes me hot
I’d like to know what you plan to do next
Silent, yes I am
I just don’t know how to fight
But I’ll try to understand
Every word that you write
*’Cause I hear you’re writing a novel
And I wanna read your book
But it’s written in a language
That I mistook for a language that I could understand

Would you read to me your story
If my eyes were a prettier shade of grey?
And would you assure me that
despite everything I’ve done wrong
that everything would just be okay?
I don’t know much about small towns
I’ve only been around ’em when I was on my guard
But maybe if I let down my hair
I would find that you do care
And we could finally talk to one another
*Chorus

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Devour You (2004)
The way your mouth pushes out your words
Makes me want to eat your lips
Put your hands upon my face
So I can lick your fingertips
Kiss your sleeping eyes
They taste like apricot
I'll boil you in a pot
So I can drink your broth
I will drink your broth
*’Cause you are delicious
I will devour you
I am suspicious that though you are sweet
You are sour too
You are delicious
I will devour you
I'll eat every last part of you

You leave a trail of sugar
Every time you leave my side
I'll lap up every grain
Until I find the place you hide
I'll graze upon your stomach
On your chest, and taste your neck
I'll torture every inch
Until I taste your sweat
I will taste your sweat
*Chorus
It leaves such a dark stain
The sweetness of my lover's pain
And I'll consume each part
And I will leave your heart
*Chorus

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Lay Your Hands On Me (2004)
Lay your hands on me
I’ve been waiting such a long time
Lay your hands on me
Just do it before I change my mind
’Cause even a blind man can see
How I blush and make a scene
I love you so hard
You make a fool outta me
So lay your hands on me before I change my mind
Lay your mouth on me
Before I fall apart
Lay your mouth on me
I’m prepared to lose my heart
’Cause even a deaf man can hear
How I tremble with fear
At the notion of losing your loving, my dear
So lay your mouth on me before I change my mind
Lay your body on me
I’m desperate to feel that heat
Lay your body on me
’Cause I don’t give a damn if it ain’t discreet
’Cause even a dead man can tell
That I’m trapped under your spell
And if it's coming at a price
Then I will gladly go to hell
So lay your body on me
Before I change my mind
Lay your body on me before I change my mind

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Lament of a Lazy Lover (2004)
Hey doctor you gotta help me
I got this problem you see
Well I'll do what I can but there's no guarantee
Well I could use your advice for what's ailing me
Tell me your worry and I'll be the jury
I got a thing for a fella who barely knows I exist
Seems I'm heading for that hill and I've never been kissed
I can't even imagine all the boats that I've missed
I leave the catch to other women
’Cause I'm better off at swimmin’
If a hot little dress would fill him with lust
I'd probably wear pants and flatten out my bust
I know it makes no sense, but I think that it's just
I'd much rather take a nap than set some crazy love trap
*I'm a lazy predator when it comes to my prey
I'd much rather go hungry than get caught up in a fray
Not the confident go-getter that I try to portray
Much to my own dismay

Do you dig being lonely?
I don't think that I do
Do you want someone with money?
I'll leave that one to you
Then you're probably just shy
Maybe that part is true, but tell me what's gonna fix it?
Try putting on lipstick
*Chorus
It's sorta hard to say, but I'd wager you're frightened
You’re not sure what to expect when it comes to the tight end
But hold onto your seat, baby, prepare to be enlightened
The fellas that you shoo are likely just as afraid as you *Chorus

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Empty Bottles (2003)
Daddy works at the bank
When the bankers have gone home
Daddy polishes the granite
Daddy shines up all the chrome
And on the weekends at the Legion
All the old folks have a ball
Daddy waits in the wings
’Til the bartender’s last call
Mr. Music, play the record
Deutschland marching songs abound
Put the ashes in the garbage
Get the streamers off the ground
Don’t let nothin’ go to waste
Even if it’s in poor taste
You got a lot of half-drunken bottles to empty
*She’s not sleeping, she’s so tired
She's too busy weeping about the liar
And empty bottles

Let’s call it 1944
Near the ending of the war
Two young lovers in a country torn in two
We can get out on a boat
Cross the vast Atlantic moat
Canada will have a better life for you
I’d rather fight to get a job
Than fight Russians in frozen water
Yeah, I'd rather be a janitor
’Cause I think that would be better
But who’d have known it’d come to this?
’Cause no one offers you a medal
To mop floors and clean the glass and the brew *Chorus
Well he had a vision
A false premonition
Growing flowers in a room
Built out of glass
Contributing gas into the Baby Boom
Then there's a wall
And some day we all fall
We're ashes to dust
So swallow your pride
Heaven’s on your side
We can't see all the things that we trust
It’s been twenty years, I think
Since your lips have touched a drink
Reinvented as a stranger in our lives
Trade your house for an apartment
Trade your shame in for denial
Find a new family and marry a new wife
As far as circumstances go
Ours were hard to bear, I know
Maybe that’s why you put your life upon a shelf
Time can dry up angry tears
But time won’t heal all of those years
Until you finally can reconcile yourself
*Chorus

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Leave it all Behind (2003)
Load the empties in the wagon
You can get ten cents per bottle at the beer store
Maybe you’ll afford another 2-4
You got a lot of bottles to return
Send your kids to the convenience store
With a letter for your cigarettes and some candy
If kids could play the lottery, it would be handy
You’d never have to leave your house
But someday kids are bound to hate their folks
And drink your beer and a pinch your smokes
You still been paying the idiot tax
Become the butt of everybody’s jokes
*So tell me, what’s the point of even trying
When all I'm doing is crying all the time?
If this is all today has to offer
Will anybody notice if I leave it all behind?

Another Monday with the talk-show hosts
The want ads, they don’t ever want nothing from me
So turn the page and scopin' out the funnies
Just can't seem to crack a smile
Second-hand is on demand these days
It seems that's all the government can pay for
But I ain't bitter ’bout avoiding all the fancy stores
’Cause there are more important things I guess
Like what if this is all I get?
A life of sadness, strife, and debt
When your kids got nothing to be proud of
Maybe it’s time to lay down another bet
*Chorus

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Kitchen Table (1999)
It's four o'clock in the morning and you're rolling out of bed
Put another pot of coffee on to shock your groggy head
The cigarette smoke forms a haze and is cutting off your breath
Now you fail to see the naked calendar girl you share your secrets with
Is blasphemy like the lottery when you live your life in chance?
’Cause it's safer to mumble and wish for pride than to take a stronger stance
Those sticks and stones may crush your bones, but those words can burn your heart
So you hide your life behind the kitchen table as the pieces of you depart
And I trace out the labyrinth in the lines upon your face
You say you're making a difference by taking up space
You work each day and you come home to find no children and no wife
And you turn to me and you softly say you need people to live a life
I've felt my guilt for holding you down but never holding on
But you never know how much you need someone until you find them gone
Now your little girl has grown too tall and your little boy has died
So you make your life a lonely bus stop and wait there for your ride that never comes
And I still chase out the demons that exist beyond your eyes
Are they gay and black or just different to condone how you despise?
But I think they condone why you are alone ’cause bitterness has its price
But I still cry for you when I hear you say you need people to live a life
And I guess we both know that your pearls of wisdom
Were only marbles masked in shiny paint
And the kitchen table has worn so thin it's bound to blow away
But the inch of dust on the picture frame promised you that it would stay
You’d better get to bed real soon because tomorrow you work and fight
And I turn to you and I softly say you need more to live a life
It's hard to change and it's hard to hate, it's even harder to be brave
For the man who chases his tail until he trips into his grave

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What of These Things (2004)
You shaved your head
What the hell you thinking?
It's January and cold outside
You forgot your hat and I miss your hair
Let's celebrate
With a glass of vacant words and loaded silence
*I love you
What of these things you do?

The dinner’s cold
I've been waiting seven hours at the table
So where've you been?
You don't have to say, but I wish you could
We complicate
All this pain with bitter lines of empty anger
*Chorus

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Where is the Rain (2004)
5pm, my work is over
A bottle of wine, a frozen dinner
A disturbing documentary
Wish someone would hold me down and love me
Before I hit myself
Before I hurt myself
*Where is the rain you promised?
Where is the rain you promised?
Where is the rain you promised me?

I hide away in a cul-de-sac
No one knows I’m here
’Cept the fear and the arrogance
Walk the streets like a stranger
’Til someone knows I’m there
And then they want something
*Chorus

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Lost to Me (2004)
When you are lost to me
I’ll be on a train travelling through the Rhine Valley
Set down hard on a lap of a moneyed gentleman
And I will fall in love if I choose to
*You do not have the heart to hurt me
I’ve never seen it in full view
Guess you haven’t tried hard enough to find me
But it makes no difference
I’ve always been lost to you

Now it seems I am lost on a warm continent
In a town where I don’t speak the language
With your smell on my skin
’Cause I haven’t had a bath
Since the last I was in your presence
*Chorus

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Decide Not to Decide (1999, listen)
From the tip of my tongue to the tip of my toe
With a single glance from you anything will go
We own this bar tonight and we own this whole city
When you own the world it's hard to think that it's pretty
But war is far off tonight you're my comrade unarmed
If you see your reflection I'm sure that I am charmed
Don't write me off my friend 'cause you'll pay twice in the end
And I'm not going home alone tonight
Never was an advocate of rational thinking
I did a lot of stare and think and stare and think and stare and think
I'll buy another round of whatever you are drinking
And decide not to decide anything at all

Mary is five and she plays with G.I. Joe
Mommy won't find out if she keeps her voice down low
All the other girls have a pink carriage in tow
And little Mary smiles cause she's the only one who knows
If Billy played with dolls they'd kick sand in his eyes
And no one would help him, because a big boy is not supposed to cry
What if I was Mary and you were little Bill
Could we spend the night together hold the interrogator's drill
Never was an advocate of loving and leaving
I guess I'm not strong enough to love and leave and love and leave
I couldn't live without his voice or the sound of his breathing
So I learned not to love anyone at all

So maybe I'm tired and nothing tempts me anymore
Nothing makes me laugh the way I laughed long before
Or maybe I grew out of dressing in and dressing up
Or maybe I grew too much forgot to tell myself to stop
But I never joined the army so I guess I haven't lost
Somewhere in my childhood my will to fight got tossed
And you were beaten out of your bangles and your braids
I guess there's more to learning life then competing for good grades
Never was an advocate of learning and losing
My memory is weak so I must learn and lose and learn and lose
This bar is getting crowded maybe we should go cruising
And learn not to lose any time at all

Take it away
Take it away
The pain
And give me ten fold
This love

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Pretty Moon (1999)
You're my baby sewer rat
And I keep you in a shoe box under my bed
In case I'm feeling bad
And we're from opposite sides of the tracks
And we only know two games
We know Snakes and Chutes and Trivial Pursuit
But we don't know which is for the brothel
And which is for the concrete garden
You see the Catholic school girl on the TTC
You wanna bend that short skirt over and show her God
And I just smile sweetly at you
Because your sickness makes me laugh
But if I knew you like I knew my erogenous zone
And didn't trust you like a stranger
Maybe we'd still be talkin' about that
Pretty moon, pretty moon
You're my disfigured reflection
Spending hours in that booth
Waiting for an invite to the ball
And if you keep on puffin' away
You'll never find your fame
And your lips will shrivel up and you'll smell bad
You're the Catholic schoolgirl
That girls like me love to hate
But I might change my conception of you
If you took me on a date
Oh no, I've lost my skin
Oh no, I love this sin
Maybe I should shut up about it and stare at the
Pretty moon, pretty moon
They call you Dom cause you're a Dirty Old Man
You got your hands down the front of your pants
Thinkin' 'bout the Virgin Mary
And everything is ugly to you
Except when you come
And you've come to piss on heads
And slander your parents in your age
Maybe the Catholic schoolgirl wants to dance naked for you
And maybe if you have a couple more beers
You'll be able to ask her
And then go home to your coffin
You gotta work at 6am
And I guess you've never had the time to think about the
Pretty moon, pretty moon

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Wedding Dance (2000, listen)
The summer falls to the wayside of the autumn
As I drive our tired bodies from the church
And you forgot your smokes at the candy store where you bought 'em
I don't tell you 'cause I like to watch you search
The leaves start to blush like the cheeks upon my head
As the setting sun shines patterns on your skin
We're playing I Spy something, you spy something that is red
Makes my wonder what I gotta do to win with you
*She's a lovely bride
He loves her so much
He's rendered helpless
He's a slave to her touch
And If I ate my pride
Would you spare me a glance
And hold me much tighter
In this wedding dance

The moon is on the rise, pie-eyed up above
And the Christmas lights are bringing out the hazel in your eyes
Faces leaking joy, as the room debates of love
You are dancing, you are handsome, you are infinitely wise
*Chorus

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Real Savior (1998)
You shouldn't just walk away, 'cause it's too easy it just turn your back
You've proven yourself a million times in a single day
And I know that you're stronger than that
I walked in to a Cathedral and I gazed at frescos on the walls
And it wasn't my lack of religion
That made my tears begin to fall, to fall, to fall, to fall
*I'm on an airplane that's heaven bound
Jesus is the pilot and we're going down
Who's gonna hear our prayers tonight when we cannot make a sound
I think my real savior is on the ground

I think you must be a martyr, though you might call it by another name
I wonder how it feels to give your self
And then pay the price of bearing the blame
Because in chains of all that's received here you build up a wall that you guard
And the people may listen or they may just walk on by
But at least you are still trying hard, at least you're trying hard
*Chorus
So what does revolution mean to you?
Or are you happy just trudging through?
Making your dollar bills to pay back the ones you slave for
Does it kill you? Tell me what you gonna do?
What are you gonna do?
*Chorus

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Ghosts of Toronto (1999, listen)
Why did you have to die on the streets of Toronto
Were you tired of carving a place?
Were you weary of seeing the depth in the shadow
Of a boy who was losing his face?
Some women give favours in alleyways
Some men can live off vermouth
But the ghosts of Toronto are living off pennies
From the dusty pawn shop of their youth
And I thought you could be alive
So I gave you my air
And when I was through digging through your dirt
I discovered that nothing was there
So you came to rest with the ghosts of Toronto
With the sidewalk baring your name
Leaving the saints and believers in mourning
And a family shrouded in shame

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Crazy Ride (2001)
Never sobered up so quickly
As when you exposed yourself to me
And I thought I would scratch your fucking eyes out
But instead I just let you be
And now a year and some has passed
And I see you nestled in the flock
You approach me with a very shaky hand
And you suggest that it's time that we should talk
I remember the day that Ryan died
Swore I'd never love again
'Cause falling outta love is suicide
But it's a crazy, crazy ride

You were my masochistic Prince Charming
We lived off booze and sex and hurt
Driving in the sunshine on the highway
I am slowly taking off my shirt
You pull over to the shoulder
To see just how far I would go
And I am a rabbit in the headlights
It's the first time I ever said no
I remember the day that Cory died
Plunged head-first in to a train
What ever made him commit suicide
Must've been a crazy, crazy ride

Now I guess I'm wondering what you'll say to me
If any words exist to wash away the veil
I just wanna feel so consequential
Though our history is slowly growing stale
I buried everything you gave to me
But I always let your memory stay alive
I wonder why you were never dead to me
I guess I forgave you the day I said goodbye
You used to tell me about when Alan died
And how you lost half of your heart
You committed social suicide
Sent you on a crazy, crazy ride
Every thing that you denied
Every fucking time you lied
Kept it all locked up inside
But was it worth the crazy ride?

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20 Questions (1999)
He said
The world in ending it's written in the stars
It's written on my fortune cookie and on the license plates of cars
I still don't got a decent job, I got no wife, got no son
And I need to find God before I'm done
I tried to find him late last night I wondered Yonge and Queen
I thought I saw his mug shot plastered on a fashion magazine
A young man claimed to be his child with eyes of fire and hair all wild
I said "Jesus" he said "No" and I smiled
And I got 20 questions in my pocket
So tell me brother what's it gonna be?
When the worlds reached a stalemate and we've run out of time
Will you find me?

Tried to find salvation on the alter of a bar
I saw a man get beaten while another stole his car
And as he drove away the mercy of his headlights met a cat
And I need to find God so I don't die like that
Sitting on the curb again waiting for the train
While a woman propositions to take away my pain
Because I'm bleeding but I just keep on searching
Because bars and cars and movie stars
And all of the little things
These are the things that make me bare these scars
And I want the bigger things
You promised me the bigger things

Fell off the streetcar and I stumbled on home
Will you be there waiting so I don't have to be alone?
Will you be there waiting so I don't have to be alone?
Will you be there waiting?

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Eyes of Me (2001, listen)
I love to watch your naked body
I love to trace the scars on your skin
From where your growing pains have been
The mirror offers no protection
From your ecstatic imperfections
You'll never know how beautiful my eyes insist you are
I will orbit you like a satellite
When you avert your eyes
I'll land my mouth on the craters in your thighs
To probe the mountains and the rivers
Until the heat gives you the shivers
And you cover the world with a blanket of snow
*I want to be the blood that's under your command
To be under your skin
And make you understand
Toss your TV from the second floor
And burn your magazines
Until you see how perfect you are
Through the eyes of me

You keep your portrait on your fridge
Held up by a magnet
So when you see it you'll remember that you're not supposed to eat
What a flawless weight loss program
Leave your excess in the attic
To hell with all of this stupid nuveau therapy
*Chorus
Tonight you're everything to me
Despite such imperfect beauty
We right these wrongs
When we write these songs
And you're right, so right
You're right
*Chorus

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Reckless Summer (2001)
We are so popular we stole our parent's beer
Jump in to daddy's Cadillac and drive away from here
Suzie's hair is blowin' 'round, she's high on LSD
She's ready for the summer nights and she's in love with me
Park the car behind the trees, can't see it from the street
We make out way a mile in, we're flying off our feet
We find our friends all huddled there with cigarettes and booze
If you can't figure out the game, you toke, you drink, you lose
Wrote in my journal this morning
And I addressed it like a letter to you
Sometimes the summer is a warning
To let the children know what growing up too fast can do
When I spent summers north of Toronto
Reckless driving on the back roads through the trees
Never knowing of what love was
Learning all about the birds and the bees

We make our way down to the lake, we're high, we're high, we're low
Borrow Old John's fishing boat, he's too senile to know
Every body pile in there's always room for more
And don't forget the case of beer we're pushing off of shore
Read in the paper this morning
They found her body cold and washed up next to him
Water has a cunning sense of mercy
She'll pull you under fast if you can't sink or swim

We are so popular the search is underway
You're a lovely shade of blue and I'm a lovely gray
We are all grown up now
We are all grown up now
We are all grown up now
We are all grown up now

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Young Girl (2001)
Bell rings
Class is out
You squeal your chair
You pull her hair
Now she'll let you kiss her
Lose your gum inside her mouth
Mean
Button fly
Who thought of this?
It's hard to kiss
It's harder to converse now
When your blood is swimming south
*Young girl gets into your mind
Her love for you comes before your time
It'll kill you
Watch it kill her too

Rain
Wedding day
Your father's drunk
The flowers stunk
But you still got Jamaica
She smiles and laughs and cries
Two
Years have flown
She lights a match
And burns your stash
You're living on your own now
Frozen wedding cake and fruit flies
*Chorus
Waitress is hot
But very late
To bring your plate
She's apologetic
As she bounces on your lap
It hurts
When she's gone
Your hairs a mess
Sleep with her dress
She's never coming back now
You're a sad pathetic sap
*Chorus

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For All The Time (2001, For Erin and Ross)
You are my angel I will give you gold and myrrh
If you promise me you will never fly to Jupiter
I will never clip your wings, won't leave you bruised or scarred
I just wanna watch you soar around our own backyard
I'm painting a picture of you laying in the dark
I am a pirate, I'm so eager to embark
On ever perfect part of you
Your hair, your eyes, your wrist tattoo
And all I ever want from you is to stay here
For all the time
We drive out to nowhere, we got everywhere to go
Bob Marleys busting out of the reggae radio
This guitar only has five strings
But you can make the last one sing
And that is how I know I know you will be here
For all the time
Said I remember when we used to be so shy
By the witness of the moonlight
And you would always come set the fire alight
And it was our love burning through the night
And you say
Everything is gonna be alright
I'll be here

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